anticipation
I have spent many hours tonight worrying. I went online to search graduate schools. Found nothing. Went to look for jobs. Nothing. I am rapidly worrying more about what is to come. I missed a season finale show that I’ve been waiting to see for a year. I just missed it by 15 minutes. ARG! I was so blind to my worry that I forgot about now. I should know better than that.
It’s really frustrating not knowing where I’ll be in a few months. The more I talk to people and all the exciting things they will be doing, the more stress I feel. Having to move at least once more this summer is also stressing me. Moving right now is stressing me. Trying to find time to make money is stressing me. Trying to continue mixing a VERY important CD is stressful. I hope I can find a lot of professionals to listen and comment to my project.